Spalms 2..........

I try to put away my selfishness
It eats a hole in my soul
Always taking, never giving
I clinch my wants in my fist

If I get what I want
Shouldn't I feel what I want?
I dominate conversation and prove I'm right
But, all I feel is wrong

I hold my new item with greed
It brings me short satisfaction
It fails to give me permanent comfort
The want comes back like an addiction

God, what a paradox You have set
I must give to receive
I must let go to hold on
I must let You provide, not myself

Take my selfishness God
It only brings destruction
Destroy in me what destroys
Make me last, even if I will never be first